Our summer retreat is very quickly approaching and we are getting more and more excited about it as time ticks away! Some of you may or may not know this already, but we have changed our theme for the retreat just recently. Our original theme was "Got Faith?" which was chosen and decided on a couple months ago. At the time, it seemed like a very good topic to discuss, I felt as though it would be a good way to begin not only our second year together as a group but also the school year because it is very important to establish that firm faith foundation!
As time began to move along and I began to prepare for the retreat, I felt as though I had hit this huge wall! Nothing was working out and it seemed as though thousands of obstacles were being placed in the path of planning! Originally, Morgan wasn't planning on beginning to teach until September so I simply went to her to vent about my frustrations and troubles. I shared with her what was going on and she responded by saying that maybe it was time to open up the door for more options and to pray and trust that God would lead us in the right direction... That was four days ago!
Our retreat will be here in approxiamtely 11 days and we have decided to switch themes! Yes, it is very nerve racking but we serve and love a God who is faithful and will lead us in the right direction, helping us to get everything that needs to get done... done! We have no doubts!
In fact, plans are rolling right along very smoothly and this time around, it truly feels right with the Lord! We are getting very excited to share what we have with you and we pray that God would open up and prepare the hearts and minds those girls who are attending on those three days! We believe it could have an incredible impact on the way you live, think, and act!
As we are in the midst of planning a retreat (which is a LOT of work), we've also been preparing our Live Love Room which we will be meeting in starting in September! It's almost finished, we just need to add a few final touches... but the closer we get to being done, the more real it becomes.
I'm not saying that last year, it wasn't real, but when you suddenly have a teenage girls ministry room in your basement, lessons to plan, events to organize, and 15+ teenage girls who the Lord is calling you to lead... things can get a little crazy, even frightening. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being a part of what God has led me to do! But, being honest, I worry a lot about whether or not I am doing anything right. I stress about whether or not I'm good enough to be a leader for these beautiful and unique girls. I question how I got here and what is going to happen next.
I know that I need to put those concerns and worries at the feet of Jesus but when reality mixes with your relationship with God, certain concepts butt heads and don't add up. I went into the almost finished Live Love Room the other night to get some planning done but ended up sitting, curled up in a ball, in the middle of the room. I felt so incredibly small in this massive world and suddenly, I felt as though I was back where I had started before Live Love ever began, wondering how God could use someone like me as part of His Kingdom.
Let me tell you this, when the Lord places a dream on your heart, calls you into the unknown of what He has planned, commands you to step out of your comfort zone, and do something that seems completely unreasonable in reality's terms... Follow! The relationship will prove itself faithful! Often times I wonder what I am doing right with my relationship with God because so often I'm reminded that I am inadequate and unworthy of the life that I have and the joy that I've been given, but every time I am reminded of my faults and failures, I am pointed into the direction of a greater God who is the one who is in control and who makes my life have some sort of purpose. Without Him, I would be on a road of Nothing, heading in the direction of Pointless.
Live Love has come a long way. It has changed and continued to grow in ways that I still can't wrap my mind around! Last year at this time, I never would've thought that during my first year in highschool, I would be spending most of my time leading a girls Bible Study... but I have come a long way myself. I didn't wake up one morning and tell myself that I was ready to begin a teenage girls group. I couldn't sleep one night and it felt as though God was saying "Ready or not, this is what I want you to do" and in one night, the idea of Live Love was born. I still wouldn't consider myself "ready" to lead a group of girls... but that's the point. God is continually teaching me new lessons everyday that He wants me to share and He is continuing to deepen the Hunger that I have to know Him more!
God does not call the Equipped to fulfill His plans... He doesn't wait until you know every single detail of the Bible. He doesn't wait for you to make up your mind of whether or not you WANT to do something... He simply equips the Called, asks you to trust in Him, and proves Himself faithful. Live Love is proof of that!
What is God calling you to do?
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