By: Kristen Groff
It's been a pretty crazy month and a half... & as I find myself sitting at home sick instead of at school on this very dreary, rainy day, I'm wondering and asking myself how things got to be as crazy as they are lately. Often times we don't even realize when life is first beginning to get knocked off balance because we are constantly on the move. It isn't until the everyday, ordinary schedule and actions seem to not be clicking together that we begin to notice and feel things falling downward.
I've experienced this in my life a lot recently. I've been so busy & tired to the point where waking up in the morning is a lot of work in itself. As much as I hate to admit it, my relationship with God is nowhere near where I would like it to be. I don't get to spend time with Him as much as I would like to. Aside from some health issues, life has been so out of the ordinary and so overwhelming that I don't even know where or how to begin writing my recent thoughts.
^^I wrote that in the middle of October 2011. So much has taken place since then! I will not spend anymore time dwelling on those things of the past because I am thrilled for what the Lord has in store for the future! We've had our share of bumps and challenges but Live Love is beginning to get itself back on track again although we are little smaller in number now.
"If I let this dream die" .... I chose that title for this article a long time ago. Tonight at Live Love, we talked a little bit about dying to ourselves, about letting go of our desires and embracing the Lord's desires; about letting go of our dreams and latching onto the Lord's dreams. Often times, I get in the way of Live Love. I try to take over, simply because I am a very controlling person. Things fall apart, get crazy, and I fall off the face of the earth like I just recently did... But if I allow all these crazy dreams to die and let God have control, then maybe, just maybe, lives will be changed, I won't feel so drained, and an even more beautiful picture will be painted.
That is the goal of our current series "Xtreme Discipleship". We are simply stepping back to what God has in store for us once we have died to ourselves. I am beyond excited to see Him move throughout the group and our community. I can't wait to watch as He begins to pour out His love on all these beautiful and unique girls. I am allowing some of my biggest dreams to die and giving up control.
My time is Your time; use it how You've planned. I'm all in, God.
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